The one that got away

I like this boy, he doesn’t know, we’re just friends. I wrote this a few days ago

And somehow we have become friends, the ones who talk with meaning

We talk about our parents, how their culture dictated their choices, and how those choices impacted our lives

We are old enough for that to mean something, the statement “our lives”

Do we stick to the path already formed by the feet of our mothers, or do we assert the same dominance of our fathers whose iron rod was literal, who lead the path for his kinsmen to follow

Why do I feel that I have always known you whilst yearning to devour whatever else there is to know

I have never felt this way about anyone before, neither have you

But as we talk you reveal greater layers of you and perhaps I do not know you

You feel the same as me, but the feelings are not for me

Conversations turn to HER, and you do not know it but I feel ashamed

We talk as if nothing has changed, I even ask about HER sometimes

I can tell you feel comfortable around me, yet you do not know it but i have changed

Somehow we have become friends, I accept that this is how things shall remain

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4 thoughts on “The one that got away

  1. “We talk as if nothing has changed, I even ask about HER sometimes
    I can tell you feel comfortable around me, yet you do not know it but i have changed
    Somehow we have become friends, I accept that this is how things shall remain”

    These lines are painfully beautiful to reflect upon. I mean there’s nothing sweet or good about what you’re feeling but you’ve captured it wonderfully.

    I hope for the best for you. I won’t tell you that it’s unhealthy for you to continue like this because you know that already. Besides it’s not as easy as a snap of a finger to let go of those feelings. I just hope that you don’t hurt yourself more in the process. It’ll get better eventually (things will change, you’ll change).

    Best of Luck
    – Lita.

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    1. Thanks Lita, it sucks because I honestly have never really liked anyone this much and everytime I’m near them it hurts. I know I need to get over it, just not sure how

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      1. Personally? I was in a similar situation and I fell really bad. I’m a passionate person so that didn’t really help me out (laughs).  It’s crazy how you can understand how toxic it is but you can’t help but continue to like this person more and more.

        Tell yourself that you deserve more and that your love deserves to be reciprocated . That in some corner of the world there’s someone thinking about you and only you. They’re concerned whether you’re happy or if you’ve got socks on because it’s cold. You get what I mean? They are willing to give just as much (actually more) as you give them.

        Yes it’s hard but it’s harder to be unhappy. I trust that the person that you like is a good person and would be more than willing to understand if you slightly distance yourself. Do it. You need to look at the issue (you liking this person) from a different perspective ( the pros and the many cons). 

        Give yourself some space to breathe in air that isn’t filled with them, so you can remember how to live without this infatuation.

         If all else fails read this. : http://www.getyourexback.co/how-to-stop-thinking-about-your-ex-in-20-minutes/

        yes it’s about exes but I think it works nevertheless.

        Don’t continue to hurt yourself. Yes they may be worth it but your wellbeing is worth more.

        to be chessy and cliché,  “there are plenty other fish in the sea”

        Unwanted and probably half useless advice proudly brought to you by Lita

        P.S. If there are errors in what I wrote then please bare with it.

        P.P.S. You’re strong and you’ll pull through.

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  2. Lita this advice is beautiful, I will read the link you sent, hopefully no more poems over this boy, although I can’t make any promises

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